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Suicide, Life and Death
Sep. 3rd, 2012 09:45 pmJournal spam. I told myself, I'l limit writing journal entries but I can't help it. I just need to let it all out-- and share my opinion/ rant on suicide. I have been thinking about it since last night since... something happened (but it was not grave)-- talk about being deep, once in a while. Ahh.. today is a depressing day.
I bet everyone has thought of committing suicide, even once. I did too, back then when I was in high school (but not anymore) I do think that it is a part of life. Getting depressed, trying to fit in, searching for your true self... family and friends. High school students even learned how to lacerate their own skin on the wrist using cutters, scissors and whatever-- saying that physical pain is better than emotional pain... but that's just a way of running away and a fleeting moment of relief-- and then you'll feel that emotional pain again. (I know.) I had a minor experience of it. I have seen people do it in front of me. And I have seen that gushing blood and scars on their right arms. When I think back-- I feel like we did a very stupid thing.
My younger sister, who is currently in high school, would also tell me stories about it too. And really, it's a high school thing. But those problems are trivial things and can be solved without hurting ones self. Ahh... but depression is a normal emotion-- dealing with it is the hard part, especially if one is an introvert or an awkward person who can't be open about his own feelings.
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Life... is not something we should belittle.We have no rights to end it and we have no rights to poison it. Death shall claim life at the right time-- and that shall eventually come. You'll only have one life to live. The second life is either you are with God or you get to be reincarnated (hard to say when we all have different religion or views in life) but either way, the life we have right now is something we can never replace and something we would forget in the afterlife. Thinking about it-- I never lost someone precious to me. Well, except for those people who come and go and friends turning to strangers. But it's all part of the cycle.
Losing someone, by means of death, is something I can't imagine. When I was an elementary student, my english told us that one must not cry when someone dies. In fact we should be happy since that person is with the Lord already. She told us that if we cry-- then it's our own selfishness. I have been pondering on that ever since; but I think she's wrong. We, humans, have been born "not perfect" we have emotions both positive and negative... and it is fine for us to be selfish at times. We cry, we mourn and we will miss that person.
If the time comes that I will lose a friend. I will... most definitely cry. I guess that's a fact. May he be an acquaintance, an online friend, a friend, a best friend and especially if that person is someone special to me. Since we had shared some memories together means that a part of you had become a piece of my heart.
(anyway, i don't think I'm making sense anymore) but please!! death is not a solution. It's purely cowardice. if you feel that way, look for someone who will punch some sense in you!! I mean, talk it out with someone. cry to your heart's content. bottling it all up would do you no good.
Human! there are a lot of persons with whom you can talk to... you are not alone. or if you really can't, God is always there for you and he shall never abandon you.
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Ahh! I let it all out. I had my dinner in the middle of this.. so probably I did not made any sense with the latter half of the entry.
I bet everyone has thought of committing suicide, even once. I did too, back then when I was in high school (but not anymore) I do think that it is a part of life. Getting depressed, trying to fit in, searching for your true self... family and friends. High school students even learned how to lacerate their own skin on the wrist using cutters, scissors and whatever-- saying that physical pain is better than emotional pain... but that's just a way of running away and a fleeting moment of relief-- and then you'll feel that emotional pain again. (I know.) I had a minor experience of it. I have seen people do it in front of me. And I have seen that gushing blood and scars on their right arms. When I think back-- I feel like we did a very stupid thing.
My younger sister, who is currently in high school, would also tell me stories about it too. And really, it's a high school thing. But those problems are trivial things and can be solved without hurting ones self. Ahh... but depression is a normal emotion-- dealing with it is the hard part, especially if one is an introvert or an awkward person who can't be open about his own feelings.
____
Life... is not something we should belittle.We have no rights to end it and we have no rights to poison it. Death shall claim life at the right time-- and that shall eventually come. You'll only have one life to live. The second life is either you are with God or you get to be reincarnated (hard to say when we all have different religion or views in life) but either way, the life we have right now is something we can never replace and something we would forget in the afterlife. Thinking about it-- I never lost someone precious to me. Well, except for those people who come and go and friends turning to strangers. But it's all part of the cycle.
Losing someone, by means of death, is something I can't imagine. When I was an elementary student, my english told us that one must not cry when someone dies. In fact we should be happy since that person is with the Lord already. She told us that if we cry-- then it's our own selfishness. I have been pondering on that ever since; but I think she's wrong. We, humans, have been born "not perfect" we have emotions both positive and negative... and it is fine for us to be selfish at times. We cry, we mourn and we will miss that person.
If the time comes that I will lose a friend. I will... most definitely cry. I guess that's a fact. May he be an acquaintance, an online friend, a friend, a best friend and especially if that person is someone special to me. Since we had shared some memories together means that a part of you had become a piece of my heart.
(anyway, i don't think I'm making sense anymore) but please!! death is not a solution. It's purely cowardice. if you feel that way, look for someone who will punch some sense in you!! I mean, talk it out with someone. cry to your heart's content. bottling it all up would do you no good.
Human! there are a lot of persons with whom you can talk to... you are not alone. or if you really can't, God is always there for you and he shall never abandon you.
_______
Ahh! I let it all out. I had my dinner in the middle of this.. so probably I did not made any sense with the latter half of the entry.
